Isnin, Mac 27, 2006

Yum2!



Erm sedap nya!!..rasanya mcm setahun dah tak makan karipap nih...

thanx yanti...

hey! Isn't it suppose to be spring?



In case anyone who don't know what it is...Let me tell you...

This things is called ice...

So what's the big deal about it?

Because it doesnt suppose to be there especially when the temperature is already 10 degree celcius.

someone said to me that Russia is another world...well guess what? It is true and it is really true..hehe

P/s: still i am glad for the coming spring...hoping to see the first flower...hihi :)

Ahad, Mac 19, 2006

I just want to close my eyes...

If I want to describe my life with one word, I would say that it is all about competition. 24 hours, 7 days, 12 month and to some extend 6 year is fully surround with this kind of 'mutual' relationship.

You have to compete from a single little thing to very very large matter. You compete for a bathroom early in the morning, then you have to compete for a hot morning tea or coffee, just when you think you can relax, you have to compete for a taxi or bus or mashrut to class. Then you go to the class and you compete for a good impresion from your lecturer and hoping for a good mark in that class. After that, practical come and you want to compete to get a decent work from the nurse, everybody want to do the injection, no one want the work of delivering patient's card, nobody want to go to autoclave or sterilize room.Why is that?


If I'm allowed to scream out my feeling, I would like to yell "Why everything have to come with competition?!!"

Competition is good. People say they can get you to become a better person, a better man and of course in my context a better doctor but seriuosly I fell really uncomfortable with every day and every time of adrenalin rush. I can't breath and I feel so sick of it. The reality is all people don't have manners when they compete, they don't care if they take it from other people, they don't care who come first, who got it first and they don't even care that other people is hurt or angry with what they are doing.

But I think it is not because of the competition that made people that way. If I had a guees, I would try it on capitalism. Capitalism make people being so selfish, so individualistic that they do anything to get their means. Everybody want to be the best, to have the greatest popularity, to get the largest pile of money. Everything come with the 'est'. It is just everyone try to be at the top and alone.

You can say that I'm being too philosphical but I think a doctor must know how to treat and care. We must know how to care them and how to take care each other. Stop being someone that want everything for yourself. If you can't sacrifice a bit of yourself for the others then why bother jumping into this field and make other people feel misery.

These people see hole in other's person and take advantages from it. I hate this kind of people.

I wish I can walk with a sign at my forehead saying 'HANDLE WITH CARE'.Maybe it is my fault for being too weak but even after being hurt a lot, I can't even lift a hand to do the same thing. I dont know why. I wish I can but there's a lot that avoid me from doing it.

At the end, we have to figure out how to take care for ourselves.Well, I just want to do a good thing, to save other people lives, To become a good doctor. Am I asking to much during this time?

Then just when you feel so tired, you just say a prayer and close your eyes. Sometimes I think it is better to stay in the dark, because in the dark there's maybe fear but still there's also hope.

Ahad, Mac 12, 2006

Really??Hihi...

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't.
Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time.

Your flirting style: Coy

Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park

Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant

What you bring to relationships: Romance

Let face the fact..No! I mean the reality...

Remember when you still a student been a lot of people who told you... that no matter how hard you learn but still learning is nothing to compare with what you have to do during your work.

I thought it is not completely true. Maybe there are some part of it which are not completely wrong but somehow we must also consider not to denied that it is vice versa.

Then I came to what I am now. The way of physician, along with the others whose medic become their style of life. Now here come another fact: in medic nothing you can do without your knowledge. Again nothing to deny, the are names of drugs that you have to remember, tons of disease you have to know, not to mention along with its treatment, oh not to forget the name of the part that you want to treat or to imply the drug.

Well considering this two fact, aren't it confusing enough?

I think this is why they called them as theory. Theory prove us eventhough it is fact but it is not always become the proof in everything.

Why I say such thing? Actually it all happened this week during our practical with the procedural nurse. We suppose to see how to do the injection, how to insert it and what is the procedure to we have to follow.

You can ask us anything. Most of them are already in our head. The solution, the type of syringe, the length of needle. You name it we give it to you.

But eventually the hardest time came when we been asked to do it. One of my friend came forward and took the challenge, first came the subcutaneus and gladly it went on without any complication 100 % like the book has said. Hehe but when it came to intramuscular, suddenly something happened. I don't know how to put this but what I can say, the needle don't went into the gluteus muscle(the buttock) instead it been repelled back. My friend tried it again but to no avail. Our nurse just smile to us and said "Nada rizka i vistra"(Need to be sharp and fast).

Everything is just according to the manual but what book doesn't tell us; is how to get ready to imply the fact, how to make sure that we are not afraid to do the procedure because unless you try it yourself, you experience it yourself, you can't actually say that you know everything.

Let's just not face the fact, let's also face the reality. Knowing is not enough, Seeing is not always believing until you experience it yourself, you do it yourself. Somehow I am so grateful that I learn medicine here in Russia where we can already practice on the real patient, feel the anxiety because doing it on that lifeless doll is different than the real patience and I bet being the real doctor is completely a different story....

Still I have nothing to fuss..just sharing my experience. I think it is me who have to do the injection next week....isk

Erm...never thought so...

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