At Last..Freedom

I don't know how I'm going to describe this feeling, it is just so magnificient, fantastic with the endless joy.

Like one of my friend said...

"You feel relief as if before this you had to hold the world on your shoulder and now your shift is over and you can let it go..."

I really want to tell everyting about my exam. For me this year's winter examination really meant something. In spite the exams were histology and anatomy which are the very basic essential foundation knowledge for a future doctor but behind this gigantic exam lies the very truth that nobody else relies about it other than me.

I really don't know where to start but I think it is better to start during the night before the examination. That time only Allah knew how restless I became. The image is still vivid in my mind. I try to sleep but in vain. The only thing that cross through my head was all the fact like all the network of artery, veins or even nerves. 10 minutes later I could even hear every single sound in the room; the clock's ticking, the water ran in the heater and even the sound my roomate grinded his teeth during his sleep.

At last I gave up, I woked up and wandered in the corridor. Coincidencely, Helmi just went out from his room headed to the bathroom. He looked at me, smiled and said:

"If you can't sleep try to pray..."

I decided to follow his advice. Actually during that time I thought that I would take any advice as I need to sleep early, the clock has already shown 3 o'clock and of course I got an important examination on the other day.

I performed solah tahajud, taubat and hajat(no sense of riak here..astagfirullah). On the end of my prayer I ask for Allah to make it easy for me tommorow, to open the door of Rahmat upon me, One thing that made me really confident about this because I was really sure and believed that Only Allah has the power to control every human's heart.

On the both day of the examination, I did see the truth been prevailed to me as everything been simplified.

For instance;during the histology's examination, while other students still prepared their answers I already been called by the professor who happened to be my lecterur and also been asked question which I really familiar with. I could even answer a mathematical question about length of muscle after contraction even though I never admit that I am any good in math and in less than 20 minute after that I finished my examination and went out from the examination hall.

The same thing happened during anatomy's exam. I got question asking the general concept of anatomy which I think even a primary school can answer it.On my second question about rectum, I answered all the arteries, their anastomoses, the veins, the location, the realtionship of rectum with other organ without any mistake. Out of my belief the same thing happened to my third question, not to mention that I have a chart displaying the artery of hand which is whatthe third question was all about and what do you know it was just in front of me.

You can call it as luck, or maybe it is just my feeling or maybe that I have study enough but I prefer to believe in Allah. I really believe that everything had been simplified to me and of course nobody had the power to engage in all of this axcept Allah. I mean really who else can even give the idea to my examiner to ask me about question that I knew, or even to make the right answer cross my mind not to mention that there are not less than 8000 terminology in anatomy that we have to know.

While other people maybe been really happy to be included in the dean list. For me it is more than that. Like what I said earlier I learnt something from this winter examination.

My Last word is... Never lose your faith even you think everything is impossible...