Isnin, Oktober 17, 2005

Hati ini ingin menjerit...

Sumer org nak pindah keluar..apa yang ada sangat dengan duduk rumah di luar tu..dan apa sangatlah yang kurang dgn duduk di asrama....

Kita sumer tahu org Russia bukannya suka sgt dgn foreigners...kita sumer tahu duduk kat luar..ada byk mslh..kn bayar tu,kn byr nih..tambah lagi dgn kerenah landlord yg memacam...tapi kenapa semua nak keluar dari asrama...

Takkan semata-mata tk nak kemas dapur..tak suka dgn maid berleter..kita suma nak lari..apa sgt ckap dier tuh pun...nnti jd doktor pun selalu jugak dgr komplen dr rmi org...

Monolog: Setiap kali ada orang yang meyuarakan hasrat nak keluar, hati ini bergetar; risau pada seribu satu kemungkinan. Setiap kali ada orang yang mengambil keputusan untuk berpindah lalu melangkahkan kaki ke luar;terasa bagai hati ini dicarik-carik umpama satu bahagian dari hidup ini dipaksa untuk diambil dan dirampas. apa yang lebih mengecewakan adalah kudrat ini tak mampu nak lakukan apa-apa. Siapa lah kita dlm hidup orang lain. Penat rasanya menahan rasa sedih timbul di riak muka, penat rasanya menahan senyuman di bibir.


Doaku agar semuanya dipermudahkan jalan, agar mereka dilindungi Allah dan diberkati. dan agar ukhwah yang telah diizinkan terjalin, kekal utuh.

Meskipun suara gurau senda itu dah lama lenyap di bawa angin, meskipun memori kiat semua semakin hilang di balik ingatan lain. Meskipun semuanya berubah. Dalam kesibukan ini apa saja yang mampu dilakukan selain memberi harapan setiap kali perpisahan dan menyambut setiap kali pertemuan dengan senyuman dan tangan yang terbuka. Seolah-olah tiada apa yang terjadi...

Ahad, Oktober 09, 2005

It start to get colder

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

I been a long time since my last visit here. It has been a hectic moment with a lot things to do, a lot of things to bear in mind, a lot of burden to be settled with and a lot of situation to be cope with....

But somehow time did taught me well. First come my experience in dealing with our new junior. So much of work to get them ready, alhamdulillah they did give their best cooperation. Although the no is small; around 15 people but their arrival did cheer us up. But I wondering how come they look a bit more matured than us???

Then come my first experience seeing a live surgery. It was totaly spectacular!!! The surgery is about to amputate a hand of a man. we got to see the operation from the hand been very nice until it became nothing other than the bone. Too bad we can watch the surgeon cut the bone as our class was already over. One of my friend nearly faint. For a first timer, it kinda normal I think, especially when wacthing a large sum of blood pouring and soaring like a fountain from the man's hand. Alhamdulillah again I have spirit, my mental control on the high level or else maybe I was the one who felt down.

Now it the barakah month of ramadhan. It is the second time I'm fasting here in Russia. Alhamdulillah and this time it is for a miracle that I saw. One of our Russian friend has converted to Islam. One thing that I salute about him is that he converted one day before the ramadahan arrive as he want o experience himself the taste of ramadahan. Now he been following our solat terawih and gladly to say he is in the same as I. Still young as people might think about us, we trying our best to support him with all we have, though we did have some problem especially into translating the malay term that we use in learning Islam to english or russia.The least that we do is to pray that Allah give us way.

Well not to forget that Russia already saying its goodbye to the woman of summer(as they say in Russia). The wind is blowing and it's getting colder...brrr..